Unwanted.

This day is so fucked up. All things aren’t in the right place. My mind is so fucked up and i can’t do anything about it. My thoughts are suffocating me. My instincts are killing me slowly. Why am I like this? Loving her turned me into this pitiful man. I’m so helpless. Why can’t you love me truly? Why can’t you let me enter your life? Your real life? Why? You told me that you love the real me but why can’t I feel anything? Am I numb already? You’re confusing me. The fact that we’re already OOC but it feels like we’re still IC? You told me that we’re official but why can’t you tell me everything about you? What’s your name? I bet it is so beautiful like you. Why can’t you tell me? Why? Are you confused? I love you, your typist. You said you love me too but why can’t you tell me? Are you hiding something? I want to know you better. I want to know real facts about you. I’m interested in you. But I guess you’re not interested in me. It’s okay. It is really okay if you tell me. You don’t have to show it. All I want is genuine love. Please tell me what you really feel. I don’t wanna be fool. Please be true to your feelings and don’t lie.

Please, I’m begging you.